Life is weird. I came to the realization the other day that I've almost been back in Elko for a year. A YEAR....that's forever to someone who is starting over. On January 27th I will have been at the County (work) for a year and on January 29th I'll have been in my own apartment for a year. I'll be eligible for an annual raise ($0.49/hr...thanks Elko County...) and will have to think about renewing my lease. I have new friends, renewed relationships with family, new love, new confidence...
I've "completed" my first semester back to school after 10 years off...sure I dropped 3 of my 4 classes but damn it I kicked ass in that one class. I'm registered for my next semester and this time I'm going to push through it and do my best. I'm a little bit terrified of this semester but people do amazing things with fear.
I've traveled a bit, tried new things, learned new recipes, gone to concerts, read great books, kept in touch, lost touch, rebuilt hope, found my REAL smile and re-introduced Kim to Kim. (She's pretty cool...heart of gold and all that.)
If you'd have told me a year ago that in a year's time this would be my life I'd have asked which hospital you prefer and had you admitted. A year ago my life was hopeless. I was barely waking up every day and not only did I not have a clue who "Kim" was...I didn't really give a shit either. I figured if I wasn't good enough for my marriage, I wasn't good enough. I knew I'd never love again. I'd never be really happy...what did that mean anyways...happy...
Guess what. I was wrong. <3
