Life is weird. I came to the realization the other day that I've almost been back in Elko for a year. A YEAR....that's forever to someone who is starting over. On January 27th I will have been at the County (work) for a year and on January 29th I'll have been in my own apartment for a year. I'll be eligible for an annual raise ($0.49/hr...thanks Elko County...) and will have to think about renewing my lease. I have new friends, renewed relationships with family, new love, new confidence...
I've "completed" my first semester back to school after 10 years off...sure I dropped 3 of my 4 classes but damn it I kicked ass in that one class. I'm registered for my next semester and this time I'm going to push through it and do my best. I'm a little bit terrified of this semester but people do amazing things with fear.
I've traveled a bit, tried new things, learned new recipes, gone to concerts, read great books, kept in touch, lost touch, rebuilt hope, found my REAL smile and re-introduced Kim to Kim. (She's pretty cool...heart of gold and all that.)
If you'd have told me a year ago that in a year's time this would be my life I'd have asked which hospital you prefer and had you admitted. A year ago my life was hopeless. I was barely waking up every day and not only did I not have a clue who "Kim" was...I didn't really give a shit either. I figured if I wasn't good enough for my marriage, I wasn't good enough. I knew I'd never love again. I'd never be really happy...what did that mean anyways...happy...
Guess what. I was wrong. <3
Love yoooooooou!
ReplyDeleteHey Kim, it's Rachel. I love your blog! You and I are so much alike, we both have gone threw a loss of a husband. Sure in different ways but when you look at the greiving process it is much the same. I remember my first year alone and how horrified I was. just me and my young son in our house alone night after night. My mom said everyday that goes by things will get a little easier but I probably wouldn't notice, then one day I would notice that things have got easier and I'm going to be ok. She sure was right, after my first year on my own things were going pretty good for me. So here's to us, and staying strong, and pushing forward!!!!! Cheers girl!
ReplyDeleteAwesome! Love you!
ReplyDeleteKim u are awsome---so glad u are back in Elko and u have done really good things in the past yr!!!! Cant believe its been ayr already---
ReplyDeleteI love you.... :D
ReplyDeleteI'm mad at blogger, it didn't tell me you posted. RUDE! :)
ReplyDeleteYOU DID IT YOU DID IT YAY YOU DID IT, my inner Dora came out!
So do you still have the "ex" knife block...... :) lol I remember when you got that, that dinner you made was yummy BTW. I was a bit scared of the gleam in your eye at that point :)
BUT CEREAL(serious) you are doing awesome! You will have your ups and downs but just keep going there is so much to experience! LIFE IS GOOD!
Love ya!